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Jenna Jameson Diary : December 17, 2004

| Friday, December 17, 2004
This month has been really rough. I haven't written in my diary for a little bit, because I was trying to gather my thoughts. Well, I will start at the beginning. As you know from my prior diary entries, I get regular facials and skin treatments with a great dermatologist here in AZ. Well, I went in to her office in early November and she was looking at my back, and said she wanted to remove one of my moles because it looked irregular. I reluctantly agreed to have her do it... because I am deathly afraid of cancer since my mother died at such an early age of melignant melanoma that formed out of a mole on her shoulder... the same place my irregular mole was. So, she removes it and sent it to pathology... and then I played the waiting game. I jetted off to NY to shoot 2 very important shoots for Elite and then returned home a week later. I called my dermatologist straight away. She said, no results yet. A feeling of dread came over me... why was it taking so long? About a week later... 3 days before Thanksgiving the call came in... I had malignant melanoma. I cried. I silenced. I cried. I hid. I cried.

It wasn't my time.... I called DR Fisher, my close true friend... and he said he will do the surgery to remove the surrounding skin of the malignancy on December 2nd. I had about a week to freak out. But, I really didn't... I was just still. The worst was telling my father. He had nursed my mother while she was ill, and watched her die. This was one of the hardest things I ever had to do... listen to my father break down was too much for me.

Finally the day came around and I went in... I am now recovering and my pathology came back all clear... Thank god!

I am sporting a 5 inch scar on my right shoulder, but I am now cancer free. I am feeling better physically and I have even quit smoking!!! I haven't had a ciggy in 3 weeks! I now have to watch myself and take very good care, so I don't ever have to deal with this again.

That's my story...... JJ